Friday, January 30, 2009

*wink*

I've got a new hair cut!!!I feel it looks kinda hilarious on me though.But my bangs are too short I scared I can't pin in school.Damn it la.Anyways I know its kinda late but Happy Chinese New Year!!!If happen any adult drop by(which is impossible),Gong Xi Gong Xi angpao na lai.*innocent*Just kidding!Well since its a happy post I wouldn't want to ruin it.Here is some pictures on my new hair cut.Please don't comment.I know its ugly,okay??


Your co-operation is well appreciated!!
*wink*
She bangs,she bangs!!
Peek-a-boo
You will always be my thunder
Don't hide:D
Yup,honestly don't hide because I will always find you no matter where you are.
I want to appreciate time while I still have because I never know what's gonna happen next...

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Dirty little secrets..

I am so freaking tired of life!!
:(

Saturday, January 24, 2009

Half alive

I finally get to blog.Well I just want to say that lately I kinda been quite down and emo-ish and moody and I want to apologize to all my friends for worrying.I've got a reason to be like that but I just can't tell.I know I can't avoid this forever but trust me I can handle it.Well okay I can't but you know I will try right??Just have a little faith in me.Well actually I didn't notice changes in me but from everyone's observations I clearly changed.I am so sorry that I don't have my laughing receptors anymore.My receptors are rejecting it.

I don't know la what is happening to me.I feel like I don't have a life anymore.I am just tumpang-ing this body.I feel so empty.Almost emotionless.I lost what I was depending on for happiness.Why can't those 3 months be longer?Why can't I enjoy happiness longer?I just want to be happy.Its that too much?I kept on wondering what I did wrong?Last year I cried through my form 2 life and didn't enjoy much which I should have.But some friends help me brighten up and get me through the year.But like always.People come and go.I guess you just can't stay any longer.

I didn't think I would miss you so much but yeah i really do.There's a lot of people I left behind each time I take a big step forward.And I am always too late to put things the way it was.Everytime I said something it was always past tense.At this point,I really need you but I guess I don't deserve you.Part of me is not with me just the way you left me those memories.If there is one thing I don't believe now it is going to be myself.I can just fall anytime without realizing. I can just break down anytime.Sometimes the simplest question was harder than to think for me to answer it.I am just no good for lying.I don't dare to look in your eyes and pretend it is alright because I'm not.I hate lonely moments.Because I knew I would start tearing and looking back in the past.

So conclusion,I just want to apologize for my bitching behaviour and thanks for the concern.I appreciate it.Love you lots!Oh yeah if you manage to get here,sorry for the crap.I just need to let out.Happy Chinese New Year!

Tags not price tags:)

---About ME---
[x] Name: Rissara

[x] Eye colour: Brown
[x] Hair colour: Darkish brown

[x] Righty or Lefty: Righty.
[x] Zodiac sign: Scorpionists:)

---YOU PREFER---
[x] Pepsi or coke: definitely pepsi
[x] McDonald’s or Burger King : MCD! (:

[x] Adidas or Nike: Nike. Just do it.
[x] Chocolate or vanilla: Choco-late
[x] Cappuccino or coffee : I don't drink

---DO YOU---
[x] Smoke : No.

[x] Take a shower : Twice a day. ;)

[x] Have a crush[es] : Heartbroken
[x] Do you think you’ve been in love? : Yes, and I hope I would again.

[x] Want to get married : Never really think about it.Not now
[x] Believe in yourself : At this point,no!
[x] Play an instrument : Nope. I'm talentless.

---HAVE YOU EVER---
[x] Missed school because it was raining? : Nope.

[x] Told a guy/girl that you liked them? : Yessy
[x] Cried during a Movie? : Yes yes.

[x] Had a crush on a teacher? : Maybe if hes hot which apparently no
[x] Been in a fight: A few arguments.
---NUMBER OF---
[x] Number of boyfriends/Girlfriends you’ve had: No comment
[x] Number of people I could trust with my life: Not many but enough for me

[x] Number of CDs that I own: You want a list?
[x] Number of tattoos: Soon going to be one
[x] Number of things in my past that I regret: A lot
---DO YOU BELIEVE IN---
[x] Yourself: nope
[x] Your friends: Yes, my close ones.

[x] Santa Claus: I do.
[x] Ghosts: yup
[x] God: obviously yeah
---FRIENDS AND LIFE---
[x] Do you ever wish you had another name?: Well I don't really like my name last time but now I do.Alot!
[x] Do you have a girlfriend/boyfriend?: Past tense.
[x] Do you like anyone?: Yes but that no longer matter
[x] Which one of your friends acts the most like you?: We are all different and we fit each other perfectly

[x] Who have you known the longest of your friends?: I've got short term memory
[x] Who do you hang around the most?: Well Brenda,Joey and Ruth the most but I spend time with others also but just lesser than this triplets
[x] What's the best feeling in the world?: Appreciating life
[x] Worst Feeling?: Crying,emo and being alone
---IN THE LAST 24 HOURS---
[x] Cried: Yes.

[x] Worn jeans: Nope.

[x] Met someone: Of course.

[x] Talked on the phone: no
---OPPOSITE SEX---
[x] Best eye color: I could gaze at any eye colour

[x] Best hair color: I prefer brown

[x] Best height: Just a lil' taller than me

[x] Best weight: Doesn't matter.

[x] Best first date location: Don't care coz all I see is you

8 person to TAG:
Brenda,Illa,Ismah,Sandy,Priya,Sharlyn,Navjit,Shash

Friday, January 9, 2009

I still..

Well well.The title might not say it all for you but for me it say so many things already.Yes I still miss you.I still miss your smile.But I guess whatever that is gone I can't bring it back no matter how hard I try.I guess I just have to live with the memories you left me with.Those days I can't stop smiling thinking of you but now I can even fake a smile properly.It look so artificial I don't even trust myself with that smile.

I really lost myself this time.Sometimes I just wanna give up on trying to be okay.Seriously,who am I to kid?I can't even pull myself up together.I don't feel alive anymore.Its like I am dying inside out.Its killing me so badly.I guess people just come and go.I guess I just have to accept it the way it is.

This morning I had this dream.It was the best dream after all of this thing.If it was up to me,I will never want to wake up.I want to stay there in dream land.I don't want to wake up and face the real world.But I have to face it.For me,now the time I always wait to arrive is my bedtime.I don't have to think about anything during those time.It is the only time I feel...nothing completely.

But now all I am able to do is live through it and wait until the pain goes off which I know it won't be too soon.

Monday, January 5, 2009

Behind These Hazel Eyes

Rules:
I.Put your iTunes/any other players on shuffle.
II.For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
III.YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!IV. Tag friends who might enjoy doing this.

1. IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?


2. WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
bottom of the ocean-Miley cyrus or Behind This Hazel-Kelly Clarkson

3. WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Your Guardian Angel-The Red Jumpsuit

4. HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
London Bridge-Fergie

5. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
She's The One-idk

6. WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
These Hard Times-Matchbox 20

7. WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Tell Me something I don't Know-Selena Gomez

8. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Truly Madly Deeply-Savage Garden

9. WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Please Don't Stop The Music-Rihanna

10. WHAT IS 2+2?
Because Of you-Kelly clarkson

11. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Scouting For Girls-She SO lovely

12. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
I miss you-Miley Cyrus

13. WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
I've Got It From My Mama-Will.I.Am

14. WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Jonas Brother-Lovebug

15. WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Summer Sunshine-The Corrs

16. WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
How Do you Sleep-Jesse McCartney

17. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Cry-Rihanna

18. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Girls Just Wanna Have Fun-Miley Cyrus

19. WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
I will Be Here Waiting For You-Richard Marx

20. HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Sorry-Bunkcherry

21. DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Like A knife-Secondhand Serenade

22. IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
bottom of the ocean-Miley Cyrus

23. WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Like A Knife-Seondhand Serenade

24. WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Tell Me something I don't Know-Selena Gomez

I tag:Brenda,Ismah,Illa,Sandy and ashiqin

Thursday, January 1, 2009

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I grew fat!!
New mission possible 2:Diet!

Truly,madly and deeply in love

Happy New Year again!!!Well didn't really do much on this year new year.Nothing much to celebrate.Today went and buy school stuff.At last.Didn't really buy much because I planned to use last year's stuff.Why waste when you can reuse??



Cute right??:)
Aah,love!When we talk about love,we always refer it to a person right?Well to me there's many kind of love.Of course I experience love for a person but today I want to talk about me love for a place I went last week.As I said in my last post I will blog about it today so here it is.I went to Koh Lanta,Thailand that day.It is way beautiful.No words can describe the beauty.I ate mango rice.Haven't try?Next time you go to Thailand you should really try.I highly recommended.Its so good you will want more.:)Well words best describe in pictures right?So here are some to feast your eyes .Enjoy:)











































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made of pandan leaves!!