Thursday, February 19, 2009

Love is blind but wonderful:)

It's a wonder how there so much too say in this picture but also there is nothing left to say.So what really does the picture represent?Is it anger?hurt?broken?hopeful?You tell me.There is so much more that just that actually.It's everything.Sometimes it does hurt but sometimes that what makes you happy.It's so wonderful.But why oh why must we hurt?It's also stupid.But one thing for sure do appreciate every moment you have because you will never know when would be the last.It's the most beautiful thing i the world.Also not to mention is the cure to all type of sickness.So enjoy love because it's the most precious thing you could get.:)I love you:D

Saturday, February 14, 2009


Well something I really want to know is why?I want to know what is in your head.What's your mind,body and soul says.I want you to let it all out.To me.I want to be there for you.I wanna feel your pain like it was my own.Please don't suffer alone.Please let me in your life.I know maybe I had no rights to force you but I see you suffer no matter how hard you tried to hide it.It's not working on me.You can't just pretend like its not there.You know you can't hide any longer.So please tell me what you really want to say.What you are not telling me.Before it's too late and you never will have the chance to tell me.

Friday, February 6, 2009

Say It Like There's No Tomorrow(sigh)

Yeah I want to know why it hurts??I don't understand.Why?Please tell me.I don't want to run away but I can't handle it either.I just feel like I want to rip of my heart,slash my wrist just to feel what pain really is.I may not know what others feel about pain but what I feel about pain is that it is a pain in my freaking heart.Its true what they say,some words just cut through me like a knife and it was not even sharp.I want to scream and cry and just let go but I don't know if I can.I lost faith in myself.I don't know anything anymore.I want to go on but some stuff they don't just go away.THEY WON'T GO AWAY.In this maze it blocks my way and make me stop dead track in my spot.

Somehow when I see you smile I feel happy because all I really want was for you to be happy.It just make my day.Everytime I see you I want to run but I looked back to see the smile on your face.And guess what?One of the reason I try to move on is because of the smile.That warm smile I miss so much.It was what i use to depend on to get my confidence level up.Even though I am learning to move on again,I will stand broken hearted.Maybe I am to blame for everything.I really am sorry for everything.Just so you know,I really appreciate the time we spend,the days that pass us and everything about it.So thanks for the memories.And if Joey or Brenda you are reading this please don't be angry.I know i know don't emo but there's a reason to everything right?And this post has a certain meaning to me.And no matter what,I still love you even though it won't be the same anymore.

Actually this is somehow private and confidental but it's okay.It doesn't matter anymore.

Monday, February 2, 2009


This morning I woke up to a terrible nightmare.But I somehow couldn't wake up from it.It keeps on drowning me into it.I couldn't wake up.When I eventually did,I started crying because it was so horrid.At first the dream was what I really hope it could be but in the end..was just plain scary.But now everything is okay and hopefully it would remain like that.I really thought my sleeps are the safest place of all but they don't turn out to be so.

Guess we can't have it our way.It so sick having to live life the way it was.Unfair.Annoying. Suicidal.I really feel like shit right now.I don't know why.Well thats all.Honestly you don't have to read it.bye bye.:)

Sunday, February 1, 2009


I love you!!!

On top Of the world.Tag,your it!!!:D

The Rules.

1. Put your music player on with all your music, then shuffle.

2. Press forward for each question.

3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn’t make sense. NO CHEATING!

4. With the answers, give your own comments on how it relates to the questions.


1. How are you feeling today ?
Song : Boys Like Girls-Hero heroin.
Me : True.I don't know why.

2. Will you get far in life ?
Song : Avril Lavigne-who knows.
Me : True.Who knows?So enjoy life.

3. How do your friends see you ?
Song : Boys like girls-Up against the wall.
Me : I guess so.

4. Will you get married ?
Song : Boys like Girls-dance hall drug.
Me : I don't know??

5. What is your best friend’s theme song ?
Song : Check Yes Juliet-we the kings.
Me : I think so.

6. What is the story of your life ?
Song : Secondhand serenade-Vulnerable
Me : I myself also don't know.

7.What was high school like ?
Song : Boys like girls-The great Escape.
Me : Drama and this song is like tempting me to escape..get it??

8. How can you get ahead in life ?
Song : boys like girls-Broken man.
Me : hahaha.I also don't know la.

9. What is the best thing about your friends ?
Song : Scouting For Girls-She's So Lovely.
Me : Yes,they are lovely.No,I am not gay.But what that came from them matter most to me.I love you:)

10. What is in store for this weekend ?
Song : Rehab-Rihanna.
Me : huh?I am going to rehab?

11. To describe your grandparents ?
Song : Savage Garden-I knew I love you.
Me : I love them eventhough I don't know them(not all).

12. How is your life going ?
Song : Boys like Girls-Me,You and Medication
Me : maybe I am okay,maybe I am not.

13. What song will they play at your funeral ?
Song : Bunkcherry-Sorry.
Me : I want to apologize to everyone i love and knew.

14. How does the world see you ?
Song :Rihanna-Cry.
Me : Craps.

15. Will you have a happy life ?
Song: Kelly Clarkson-Behind These Hazel Eyes.
Me : I guess no but things change,right?

16. What do your friends really think of you ?
Song : Selena Gomez-Tell Me SoMething I don't Know.
Me : hahaha

17. Do people secretly lust after you ?
Song : Say Goodbye-Chris brown
Me : that would be a no.

18. How can I make myself happy ?
Song : Demi Lovato-Get Back.
Me : Will it happen?no.

19. What should you do with your life ?
Song : Mamma Mia-Abba.
Me : Yup,here I go again.

20. Will you ever have children?
Song: Honey Honey-Mamma Mia.
Me: We'll seee.

I tag:
Priya, Brenda, Kelsey & Ismah.

Me,me and more me>.<

1. Does it matter to you if your boyfriend or girlfriend smoke?yes because I wouldn't want to live without you and partly because its dangerous.

2. How about drinking?I advice not.

3. Do you like someone you can't have?Yeah but does it matter?

4. If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?It won't do good if you hide?

5. What's your favourite sport?I used to cheer.:)

6. Its Saturday night, and you're home alone... what do you do?on9

7. Do you like roller coasters?Yes.LOve it.

8. When's the perfect time to have a bf/gf?A perfect time?never.

9. If you could date any celebrity, who would it be?Taylor lautner,babey! :D

10. What are you doing this weekend?Tuitions.

11. What is your favourite restaurant?Depends.:)

12. Have you ever hugged someone?Not in a while.

13. Ever kissed someone you weren't attracted to?No.

14. Do you like anyone right now?maybe.

15. What is the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?I don't look.

16. Which do you prefer, Beach or Mountains?Definitely beach.

17. What kind of phone do you have?Sony K750i

18. Computer or Laptop?Both.

19. Jeans or Sweats?Sweats.

20. Which year(s) has/have been the best so far?None.

21. How old are you gonna be on your next birthday?Fifteen

22. What should you be doing right now?sleep.I am sick

23. What is your favourite TV show?I write you a list.

24. What's been your last purchase?food?

25. Are you attracted to girls/boys that smoke?Not at all.

26. Have you ever fallen on your butt in front of a crowd of people?I don remember

27. What do you do when you're at home?Homework.

28. What is your favourite subject?Maths and science! :DDDD

29. What's the best thing that's ever happened to you?To ever find you.

30. Tag 10 people
anyone who is will to do.:D