I been thinking again lately and I been reallly confused about everything that is happening around me.I don't know where I stand.I am not sure when I am going to fall.Flat on my butt.Memories I feel everyday cutting me deeper and deeper every single day.How do I stop it??I don't want to go through this shit again.It's true what they say.You never appreciate what you had until it's gone.Many times it's been told but still people making atupid mistakes.Does it really take a deathbed to realise??Does it matter anymore then??What stopping you??Seriously things haven't been great.My marks are falling and i am a mess.Honestly,is it too much to ask to let me be happy??I hate faking a smile.I hate being this I-don't-care-about-a-damn-thing kind of person.In fact I hate being alone.I know it's been a while since I really even cast a proper smile and I am so sorry to those around me.I didn't mean anything to hurt you.
"I want to let you know how much I feel your pain"
"i be lying if I told you losing you was something I could handle."