Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Love Conquers All

I'm currently looking at a few of my friends blog and they all look so emo.To see all of them hurt so much in many ways.I hate seeing people's pain.I rather feel it myself than let the suffer.The look on their face really makes my heart shattered.I know this person and yes,the person is a very good hidder.Although this person smile and act like normal,I still see the pain that was hidden in those eyes.Well when I see them it just makes me want to break down and cry.I don't know how to reach out to this person.I don't know what is wrong.I just.Well I guess there's nothing much I could say.Although there is many many things up in my head.

I been thinking again lately and I been reallly confused about everything that is happening around me.I don't know where I stand.I am not sure when I am going to fall.Flat on my butt.Memories I feel everyday cutting me deeper and deeper every single day.How do I stop it??I don't want to go through this shit again.It's true what they say.You never appreciate what you had until it's gone.Many times it's been told but still people making atupid mistakes.Does it really take a deathbed to realise??Does it matter anymore then??What stopping you??Seriously things haven't been great.My marks are falling and i am a mess.Honestly,is it too much to ask to let me be happy??I hate faking a smile.I hate being this I-don't-care-about-a-damn-thing kind of person.In fact I hate being alone.I know it's been a while since I really even cast a proper smile and I am so sorry to those around me.I didn't mean anything to hurt you.

"I want to let you know how much I feel your pain"

"i be lying if I told you losing you was something I could handle."

Friday, April 24, 2009

I can't deny your eyes.

I know I haven't been blogging for a solid 12 days.Well I am making up for it now.You know what??I finally watched Alvin and The Chipmunks.After several decades.It is so cute.I really want to pinch their cheeks or something.I like Theodore(Jesse McCartney:D-that explains why) so much.Seriously!!

Anyways,the whole of the weeks was good.I never thought I would say this but I am getting better in time and hopefully REMAIN that way.I been better.Well partially a lie but STILL!!I been thinking lately and many lessons learned.Since its exam week there is sooo many examples that potrays the way I been for the past *ashamed* 4 months.That's right.Well I got a good reason for the drastic behaviour.I think I am handling it very well consider the rate of the that was drop on me.But yeah I blame myself.

Today during Pj,Joey or as I prefer Yep Tee Nee had make up this thing for us to do during Pj.It's called PJ Retards after going through a process of shortening.So we will act as retards during Pj and I gotta vote YTN for being the biggest retards of all time.She's a legend.:DYou know what she did??She invented the slow running competiton ever.And also The-If-You-Move-Then-You-Run comp.Seriously*clapping* you live your title.Scientificly proven.Muahahaha!!Then after that,change and go back to class for effing science.Yes,can you believe??I got so low I have to hide it from my mum.She will say that I took two tution classes and still get assing result then she send me away to miltary school=boarding school.Haiyo!!So was freaking frust during recess.Let off all the steam and finally after what seems like an eternity I get better.So it was then Maths.And sivik.Do you know I practically embaressed myself by singing so loud and out of tune??Well nevermind.Laugh a lot and it remains that way until I found out my phone line was cut off because of idiotic service.All in a day.Isn't it too much??Just so tired tired tired of living the same routine all the time.

Anyways, I been wanting to say this.I found out that,Ismah is very very childish.You are B-U-S-T-E-D.Muahhahahaha!!I am sorry if that is offending but I need people to know that I am not as childish as Ismah,Illa,Iqin,YTN,Brenda(several times),Liyy,Sha sha.See, so childish but that's why I love them!!:D

Okay gotta go already.good night and buh-bye.

Sunday, April 12, 2009


AHHH!!Illa is fifteen yesterday.:)I'm sorry I didn't post this yesterday because I was very very sick and I can't even freaking get up.Man that was horrible.Anyways I just want to wish you a Happy Belated Birthday again and presents will be late as I am not so free now.Sorry illa.I love you so much.I am so happy that you are older.hahaha.It makes me feel much better to know I am young.:) I'm so glad you had fun on your birthday.So thats all.:)
She is 15:)
her lan ci look.(so called)
she look soo cute
specially made for you hun:)

Friday, April 10, 2009

Catch me when I fall:)

I'm so sick of being sick and tired.Yeshh,currently with the friggin' high fever.So tired and my body ache.But I'm strong so I will pull it off easily.Smiles.

I will never let you fall,

I will stand up with you forver

"You caught me at hello."

-So many things left unsaid.-

Friday, April 3, 2009

Cause you always be my thunder.

Totally Random but love it

Btw,this is my newest plushy toy addiction:D
The name is mooey!!
not because it's Joey.:D

Cause we rock!!

I know it's kinda late to blog about last monday's KKG outing but I got a lot picture and I don't know what to do with them so here goes all the pictures and I love 3 Amanah cuz we rock(Camp rock style):D

Crappy partners for always:D

I just love her:)


the hottie(Brend) & the nottie(rissy)

see what I meant??
I like this pic:D


My walk home buddy

my monkey woman:)

my crap,cat-loving partner:)
Soooo,like I said.3Amanah rocks!!!Lovesss